I’m publishing this frustrating post now…and will most likely regret it later

Blog—>Social Media.

Social Media—>SOCIAL.

Social: the interaction of one with others.

I started this blog last year when I first moved to Calgary as a means of connecting with the people I used to always be around, and to reach out to others who live a similar lifestyle. But lately, I have noticed that there is almost nothing social about my blog (at least from my perspective). I spend hours linking, editing, adding and creating these stupid little posts, and I have somehow only acquired about 25 regular readers. 

Call me selfish. (I refer to myself as bored and having the desire to be the ‘cool kid.’ something I have strived for since kindergarten and have never been able to achieve.)

In an attempt to promote my blog, and the work that goes behind it (even though it may not LOOK like much), I started tweeting and instagramming and even created a facebook page. What did that get me? An empty feeling on three additional social media platforms. 

(Another reason why I chose to step away from the blog the last two weeks.)

..it probably doesn’t help that I am currently in a state of limbo between

  1. living in a place where I have none of my friends around me; and
  2. the fact that I can just NOW start looking for work. (cause for additional frustration)

(For the record, Tyler has been really supportive of me through all this. But it is unexplored territory for the both of us, so we are doing our best!)

Now, I don’t blog from the States, so it is pretty impossible for me to host a ton of giveaways because mailing them would be MY cost. And it would be super expensive. Even though it would be a great way to increase readership, it is just too financially draining.

And that’s not to say that I’m LOOKING for sponsors or free stuff from companies by any means, but it is super disheartening to see other bloggers get loads and loads of ‘SWAG’ (PS: I loathe that word) and constantly pimp it through twitter, instagram, and the like. And not only to pimp it out ONCE, but to do it multiple times. Their readership: increased.

Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE LOVE LOVE sharing new recipes and workouts and products that I have come across, it’s just really hard when I am cooped in a house (‘cooped’ meaning I don’t have 8 hours of being at work each weekday – or something similar to that- ) and I write posts that I think will get people excited to workout or bake or LAUGH and they will comment on it.. 

and then I get almost nothing.

BUT. i DO thank those of you who take the time to write to me. You have NO idea how happy it makes me. Even if it’s just an emotion or something stupid. You took the time to write to ME. 

I am ALWAYS looking for things to write about and continuously reach out for suggestions so I can keep my ongoing readers entertained.

I’m sorry if this offends any of you who do comment here, but I just wanted to share what I am feeling. Remember: not all blog posts have to be positive! (I don’t want to be one of those who create a false world of ‘awesomeness’ that is their life only to make readers feel less than their best when they are experiencing not-so-awesome things in their own lives.)

The moral of the story: my blog has yet to be what I want it to be. Perhaps that’s my fault.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I have to go do things so that I can write about them in my next post.